Where we live, it's pretty exciting! There's been a major drought here and all Winter long it's been sunny and 80 degrees! I really enjoy the warm weather, that's why I live here. I usually hate rain. But rain is good for the earth and the soil. And it has deeper meaning.
I remember a Beth Moore lesson about rain, and how she related rain to the times in our life when God is very present; pouring out blessings, or very obviously speaking to or guiding us and life is wonderful! She compares those "rainy" times to the "droughts" in our lives when we feel lost, when God feels distant, when nothing is going our way. I'd like to point out that God is never actually distant, he's always present. It's really just that we can't see him for some reason. This could be a number of reasons, and it's usually our own fault.
Beth Moore was comparing this "rain vs drought" idea to the stories in the Old Testament, where they would have a terrible drought for months and months and they would pray for God to bring rain. These farmers needed rain for their crops to grow, for life to continue, and sometimes God just wasn't allowing it to rain. Other times, it's pouring rain and the crops are bountiful! I've been in both situations, I'm sure all of us have.
Well, as difficult as everyday life can be, it's still most certainly raining in my life right now! Praise God! Both spiritually and physically haha, hence the rain outside my window.
MOVING
We are definitely moving! In less than two weeks!! I didn't think it would happen, because this escrow has been a crazy roller coaster with many hurdles and issues and somehow God worked miracles along each step of the way. We are so grateful for this. I'm so glad we followed our heart and where God seemed to be leading us. It's crazy! I really need to start packing, but I just don't want to live out of boxes for the next two weeks. But I'm so excited I don't know what to do!
SLEEP AND HEALTH
Yes, sleep is very important to us around here. But it's rare! Dan's been working overtime and six days a week. He got the stomach flu on Sunday and it was his only day off! :( It was terrible. I just don't understand why we all keep getting sick!
Dan wakes up for work at 3AM and I rarely get sleep because of Olivia. My last blog post was about how she was sleeping so much better. I shouldn't have jinxed it! It got progressively worse! Thankfully, we've gotten her to sleep a little bit better these past two nights. But now Isabella, my three year old keeps waking at 4AM thinking it's time to get up!! Hopefully things get better. We are always praying for sleep.
GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE
I've also been trying to get out of the house each day to do something. The girls and I just go crazy sitting here all day. I get depressed and anxious sometimes because I don't really have friends and never get out on my own. Dan has work, his Men's Bible study, and men's group, so he gets time to himself and time to socialize. I'm just always at home with the children. If I'm ever out on my own, it's to grocery shop for about an hour. It's pretty pathetic haha. I never thought I'd be that mother that says she feels trapped...but I do. I never sleep, we rarely get out of the house to do something really fun as a family, and I never get out on my own. Someone please tell me, does it gets better as the children grow older?
I have joined some playdate groups with fellow Christian mothers, but the meetings rarely happen and it never seems to work out for some reason. I have been trying for years to get into some kind of community or women's group and never really been successful. Usually because we don't have a babysitter or can't find any groups with young parents like ourselves.
I don't know why it's so hard for me to make friends, I haven't had a real group of friends since High School. (Is that sad??) I've been in my own little world for like 7 years. Our Church is always encouraging people to get into groups and make friends, saying life is much better with fellowship. I bet it is. It makes me sad.
But I am continuing to pray that God will provide somewhere for me to go.
Anyway, I'll try to update again before we move.
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